Another year is coming to the end. Like many other people, I also could not complete the tasks of the 'to do' list, I had thought of doing.
But that's natural, it always happens to me. Although I am used to, still it hurts sometime.
I am not that big dreamer so my lists are full of small steps which I want to ride. May be that's why it hurts more because I feel, 'if I would try I could achieve that. I didn't try enough.' This self judgement forces me to think, I am worth of nothing.
And after reaching this point, I start to think just in the opposite way.
I start to think, new year will be far better, not only for me but for the whole world. In spite of knowing that there will be hardly any change.
Then why do I think in that way? Because positive thinking helps me to breathe, it helps me to believe in myself.
In this cruel world, fairy tales can't be happened but I still love to believe in that. Because thinking in that way helps me to live in peace.
It's hard to stay strong and it hurts a lot to act like a strong person when you know you are actually not.
But living a life of a weak person does not help me.
What I have understood so far is that, we, human, are selfish. We want ourselves to be happy, we want to protect ourselves from upcoming pain and suffering.
My way of protecting myself is 'be positive, stay positive.'
The people who are full of negative thoughts, they are also trying to protect themselves from being hurt.
Consider a guy who thinks perfect love is a myth, is absolutely correct although but deep inside he is not bothered about what is right or wrong. He did not meet a girl who was perfect and he will never do so because no perfect one is out there. However, by telling himself all those unsuccessful love stories, he controls his mind and tries to train it not to expect perfect love.
There is nothing wrong with that upto this point. But it could go wrong if more and more harsh true facts start to capture his mind and he forgets to see the little bit of positivity of life still remaining.
Then he will need a psychiatrist to help him.
And this is the reason why I believe in fairy tales, this is why I love to watch Disney movies. They do the same things what psychiatrist does to that guy. And I don't want to fall in love with psychiatrist like Alia did in 'Dear Zindegi' (if it is Shahrukh khan with that look I may).
So I will better stick with my Disney world.
It's good to know the real facts, it's good to be aware of all the negative possibilities but it's harmful to be controlled by those negative thinking.
After all that will not help us.
So, enjoy the upcoming holidays, try to think that some good things will certainly happen in this new year. I am also trying to think and that is why I have written a big essay about an imaginary guy just because I want to convince myself, hopes never die, it can't be.
And Moana will certainly be successful to convince Maui to give back the heart of Te fiti.
But that's natural, it always happens to me. Although I am used to, still it hurts sometime.
I am not that big dreamer so my lists are full of small steps which I want to ride. May be that's why it hurts more because I feel, 'if I would try I could achieve that. I didn't try enough.' This self judgement forces me to think, I am worth of nothing.
And after reaching this point, I start to think just in the opposite way.
I start to think, new year will be far better, not only for me but for the whole world. In spite of knowing that there will be hardly any change.
Then why do I think in that way? Because positive thinking helps me to breathe, it helps me to believe in myself.
In this cruel world, fairy tales can't be happened but I still love to believe in that. Because thinking in that way helps me to live in peace.
It's hard to stay strong and it hurts a lot to act like a strong person when you know you are actually not.
But living a life of a weak person does not help me.
What I have understood so far is that, we, human, are selfish. We want ourselves to be happy, we want to protect ourselves from upcoming pain and suffering.
My way of protecting myself is 'be positive, stay positive.'
The people who are full of negative thoughts, they are also trying to protect themselves from being hurt.
Consider a guy who thinks perfect love is a myth, is absolutely correct although but deep inside he is not bothered about what is right or wrong. He did not meet a girl who was perfect and he will never do so because no perfect one is out there. However, by telling himself all those unsuccessful love stories, he controls his mind and tries to train it not to expect perfect love.
There is nothing wrong with that upto this point. But it could go wrong if more and more harsh true facts start to capture his mind and he forgets to see the little bit of positivity of life still remaining.
Then he will need a psychiatrist to help him.
And this is the reason why I believe in fairy tales, this is why I love to watch Disney movies. They do the same things what psychiatrist does to that guy. And I don't want to fall in love with psychiatrist like Alia did in 'Dear Zindegi' (if it is Shahrukh khan with that look I may).
So I will better stick with my Disney world.
It's good to know the real facts, it's good to be aware of all the negative possibilities but it's harmful to be controlled by those negative thinking.
After all that will not help us.
So, enjoy the upcoming holidays, try to think that some good things will certainly happen in this new year. I am also trying to think and that is why I have written a big essay about an imaginary guy just because I want to convince myself, hopes never die, it can't be.
And Moana will certainly be successful to convince Maui to give back the heart of Te fiti.
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